Today was Brent's "day off" at the police department, which means he works 8-5 at his parents company. For me to be able to stay home with our babies is such a blessing. But its also a scarifice we chose to make as a family. Brent works an average of 65 hours a week, most times 7 days a week. So when he came home for the day at noon, we took advantage of his time AND the beautiful fall day and went to the park as a family :) Brent is such a FUN playmate for Stone. It melts my heart to watch them play and laugh together.
Monday, November 7, 2011
"Beware that you don't look down on any of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels are always in the presence of my heavenly Father."
- Matthew 18:10
Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.
And anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf is welcoming me.
ADOPTION. FOSTER PARENT. Two words that pricked my heart about 5 years ago. That tiny little wound in my heart has evolved into a gaping hole. The passion I feel about adoption and foster care is something that came from no specific story or event. It wasn't from a message I heard or a commercial on tv. I can't tell you the exact moment or where I was either. God must have been delicately shaping my heart over a long period of time. When I found out I was pregnant with Stone the pull I felt to one day adopt and/or become a foster parent was intensified. By the time he was born, I was 100% confident adopting my baby and fostering babies was a calling from God. I don't think there is anything in my life that I feel more compassion and conviction for then helping these babies in need. But, its not just an urge to help. I truly feel that my family is not done growing. I wholeheartedly believe that we (Brent and I) are supposed to love and raise more children in addition to Stone and Sylas.
God has been working on my heart for a long time about this. Lately he has shut a lot of doors that I have tried to barge through. Last night I felt it was time I made the first baby step towards a calling. I filled out several online applications through different agencies and government websites to obtain more information and begin the process of being certified foster parents. I have no idea where this step will lead us. It may be down a long road that will take time and patience. The Lord knows, we have NO idea what we're doing and have so much to learn. I am not a "professional" anything. I have no foster care knowledge or experience. But, I have a passion for these precious babies in need. I find great confidence in knowing that God chose inexperienced people in the bible to do amazing things and complete his perfect will. This baby step may lead us down a quick path that we could never have been fully prepared for. God works in mysterious ways. Only my Heavenly Father knows where he is leading us! And I will follow faithfully. So I have no expectations or plans other then taking this little step and moving through the doors He opens and accepting the closed ones.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I know, without a doubt, that you have called me to provide a safe haven and unconditional love to your youngest, most precious creations. The passion and conviction I feel to provide and care for them could not possibly come from my sinful nature, Only your Holy Spirit. I understand that there will be trials and frustrations along the way. I accept that I cannot see where you are leading me. Please provide me with patience, grace, wisdom, and peace throughout my searching of Your will for my life. I love You with my entire being and I know that You love me more then I understand. So I ask You to lead, convict, and renew our hearts, constantly pointing us towards your will. Thank You for sharing Your blessings and the Life of Your only Son, so that I might be adopted by You, my Heavenly Father.
*I have posted my constant prayer so that you can see my heart and needs as I start this journey- I ask you to pray along with and for me, my family, and the lives of these children who desperatley need to be cared for and loved. If you, or if someone you know has gone through the journey of adoption or being a foster parent, please tell them about us! I would love advice, guidance, encouragement and/or prayers from those who have traveled this path.
Father to the fatherless, defender of widows — this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families...
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Stone and I went to the Circus today! It was nice to be able to focus on Stone for a few hours. He didn't have to share my attention. This was his first time at the circus, and he LOVED it! He did get bored with the scantily dressed trapeze artists though- Fine by me. He danced and cheered along with the crowd. He was captivated by the elephants and dog acts. He nearly jumped out of his skin during the human catapult. Our favorite part, though, was riding the elephant! It was a sweet memory we made today, just me and my "Stoney Mac".
Saturday, November 5, 2011
So I work 1-2 days a week (15hrs max) at an upsale clothing boutique for fun. It gets me out of the house and I LOVE IT! Which is rather ironic because, Im usually broke, I hate shopping, and I wouldn't exactly call myself a girly girl.
I Love the girls I work with!
I Love all the pretty things in the store!
And I Love selling (weird. I know.)!
Since I get to window shop while I work, I make mental notes ... or WISH LISTS!! Here is my Christmas Wish List .OBSESSIONS. (for accessories anyways ;)
FRYE "PAIGE TALL RIDGING"
HOBO LAUREN "EXOTIC"
RAY BAN AVIATOR
HOUSE OF HARLOW JEWELRY & SHOES
ALEX AND ANI